Everyone wants to be liked.To be accepted. To impress others. We all want to have a good list of people we can call friends. But sometimes having those desires can lead to forgetting-or not even knowing-who you are as yourself. As an individual. Your own being.
People pleasers, if you will. The world is full of leaders but sadly, it's also full of just as many followers. People who are afraid to be their own individual. Who bend over backwards to make sure someone likes them, accepts their lifestyle, the way they look, their opinions. These people often find themselves lost when alone. People pleasers.
I've realized that I, myself, am somewhat of a people pleaser. And not in a great way either. If I'm going to please people it needs to be for the glory of the Lord. I am not here to win people over. To impress anyone. To agree with everything they say. I am a grown woman. I have my own family. I have been through more hardships than one my age should ever have to go through. I have an opinion, too.
I AM ME!
Like it or not, I am what I am. And God made me that way. He wants me to be the person I am today.
But-and I say this with a strong BUT-I can still be that great Christian that I aspire to be AND still have my own opinion. Style. Dreams. Rules. Friends. and whatever else my little heart desires.
It's MY life.
I was not put here on earth to judge you, or anyone else. And neither were you. We will all be judged in the final days by the on true God.
Whenever you speak, or whatever you do, remember that you will be judged by the law of love, the law that set you free. For there will be no mercy for you if you have not been merciful to others. But if you have been merciful, then God's mercy toward you will win out over his judgment against you. James 2:12-13
Today was the last time Baby Bear got to see Dr. Snyder. She was there on-call for our regular pediatrician when I went into early labor with Baby Bear. I was very worried not having our regular dr there but she was AMAZING! Words cannot describe how thankful we are that she was there to care for our Baby Bear and keep us calm while she accessed his health and had to make that tough decision weather to keep him in Paducah or send him on to Vanderbilt. Of course we ended up in Vandy but that was mighty fine but us! All the while we remained in contact making sure all was well with Baby Bear. His stay in the NICU was only three weeks (but those three weeks felt like an eternity) and was able to come home happy and healthy. We've continued seeing Dr. Snyder and our regular pedi, Dr. Roach during the last, almost, seven months and my face just lights up when I see her hold Baby Bear. The way she looks at him just makes me want to cry. You can tell her heart was in taking care of him.
She is a traveling dr so she is off on, yet, another journey. This time to Colorado. She's been there once before. I have to admit that I cried a little when I found out she was leaving us but I know she will bless another family that needs her help in Colorado so I shall let her go! As a parting gift we wrote her a sweet thank you not and got her a Willow Tree angel that is holding a wire balloon saying 'Thank You'
Dr. Snyder...we will never forget how much we were blessed to have you enter our lives for such a brief, but VERY important time!
*and YES, that IS in fact a Pink Floyd t-shirt! Leave me alone!!
Now on to the appointment itself. I know, I know, this post is never ending...bear(haha-get it?) with me! Maybe this will keep you interested. While waiting for the dr to come in Baby Bear (or BB for short) was just amazed with the wall paper. So much so that he kept yelling at it-in his best terradactyl voice-and trying to grab the birds. BB doesn't sleep. At all. Okay, I lied. He sleeps for about two hours at a time. Day and night. By the time evening rolls around the poor guy is exhausted. Dr. Roach upped his Prevacid solutabs in hopes that it's the reflux and this will calm it down so he can sleep and not be restless. He also saw that he still has a lot of fluid in his ears. Second month in a row now and once before a few months back. And one ear infection. The dr said that if this antibiotic doesn't clear it up and in another month he still has fluid we may have to talk tubes. I hate to go that route but I would also hate not to, fluid in the ears all the time could lead to hearing and speach problems by the time he's a toddler.
(what's that, you want to see more pictures of the Baby Bear? Okay!)
And since Mama Bear was such a good bear! at the drs office she got a special treat...the holy grail right here baby...
I have to preface this by saying this is not my original idea but I am totally stealing it. Hey now, it's not trademarked, copyrighted, or patented so it's fair game! Just joining in on the fun!
Though I love the names of my wee ones and the hubs I thought it would be mighty cute to for us all to have nicknames in the Big Blog World! While the hubs and I were painting the kitchen it hit me-the idea, not the kitchen-I came up with the 'names.' *okay the kitchen really did hit me or maybe it was I who hit the wall a few times; so not only do I have green hands and fingers but also a green elbow and probably some green stuff growing on my legs as well!
Ah, off topic again. See what happens when you have ADD And you stay up way too late!
To the names... Mama Bear Papa Bear The Bear Baby Bear
You see, my friends, Chad nicknamed Riley Bear many moons ago (okay, not that many since he's only two!) and so it was only fitting that Sam be Baby Bear. You see where I'm going with this...
So...welcome to the BEAR family blog. Sit down (but not in MY chair) and have some porridge*!
*first a short note...my mind has been so full of things to blog about and pictures to share that I just haven't been able to post anything. Well, I could have, and I tried, but it ended up a jumbled mess of run on sentences, far too many pictures and enough topic changes to confuse even Einstein! (How many commas can one use in a single sentence?)*
I find myself on a God high on Sunday's but usually by the time that Monday rolls around I have the yuckies. The kids always seem to wake up grouchy and I'm faced with the fact that my hubs has to go back to work. Why can't my Sunday high spill over through the rest of the week? It can, and from now on, I'm making a commitment that IT WILL! Starting by spending more time in The Word on a daily basis and praying more often. Thus beings Motivational Monday! Each Monday I plan to post something motivational. It could be something I find that's motivational to myself, to a dear friend or it may just be something that God put on my heart for me to post for someone else! He works that way, you know!
~MOTIVATIONAL MONDAY, May 18th, 2009~ When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and could say, "I used everything you gave me." -Erma Bombeck
This quote speaks to me. We are studying spiritual gifts in our Sunday school class and this goes perfectly with it. Not to mention that for the past couple years I have been struggling trying to figure out what it is that God is calling me to do. It may be something as simple as just doing what I'm already doing or it could be more. I have a pretty good feeling I'm abuot to catch on though. And when I do I'm going to use everything He gave me! He is going to shine through me in everything I do!
Does this quote motivate you? Are you using everything He gave you?
Married to the man of my dreams, two happy and healthy little boys, a loving Father above, the best family, awesome friends, a roof over my head, plenty of food for hubby to cook us, toys in abundance, the coolest van, the best church and Sunday school class and dreams-aplenty! Could life get any better?! Maybe, but I've got it pretty good right now!